My Girls

Since 2004 I have been fighting to see my three girls!!! Their mother has been pounding in their heads that I am a horrible person!!! The last time I actually had my girls they were 3,6, and 8 and now they are 10,13, and 15. They now actually believe that I am the "MONSTER" their mother portrayed me to be!!! I love my kids with all my heart and the courts still to this day have done me no justice!!! I have been alienated from my daughter's, for whom I would die for!!! I also have two son's 19 and 7 and they love me dearly and we are very close!!! I have been in deep depression over this for so many years, people say " It will get easier" but it doesn't!!! I have tried almost everything but nothing seems to work. I want a relationship with my girls and I feel as if it's too late!!! My boy's have suffered through this all with me and to see the hurt in their eyes kills me and I can't fix it!!! If anyone who reads this has any ideas I am open for suggestions..